The Life of Wighar Stamfaste

Left 4 Dead 2 – The Versus Mode

During the last 2 weeks I have gone from playing normal campaign mode in Left 4 Dead 2 to the Versus mode, which I never tried in left 4 Dead so I thought it was worth to at least try it.
I must confess I love playing as the Infected, most of all I like to freak the survivors by being the Hunter, moving around them out of sight and crouching to make the hunter growling sound and sometimes pounce around an area just so they hear the attack scream close by, or I pounce right into the center and jump around among them before going for my target.

The Spitter and Boomer are a brutal combo when setting up a ambush, have the Boomer vomit on them or get in among them to cover them all in bile when he/she blows up, and while the horde of zombies come from all over a perfect spit will make life hard for the poor survivors, if your lucky one of them will be knocked over.
The Charger can make instant death possible in some areas, as the Charger makes his charge your either stuck infront of the running train accident to happened or your thrown away to the side, if extremely unlucky your thrown into deep water, which means instant death in most cases.

As I got bored of the constant bad ping on servers I decided to do what I used to do before, I used to administrate dedicated game server, so checking that I had so I could afford it on my own hand finding that I could indeed squeeze it in for less than expected, I ordered a 8 slot(s) Left 4 Dead 2 Server from interactive 3D, I have been a customer with i3D for sometime and almost all of my game server rentals has been with them, mostly due to low ping and helpful customer service.
At the moment I am trying to figure out why the server wont accept my orders to go into versus mode only, if I cant figure it out I’ll contact customer support.
I made some new friends on the versus course and I am happy to get invites to games when possible, that is if I don’t check the friends column for games their in.

Parts of my history and on subject of love
recently one could read that The Gamer’s Girl got her engagement ring, Congratulations ^_^ I am happy for her.

I do wish I had a girlfriend myself, but as I mentioned in my blog earlier I have a unknown panic attack syndrome, claustrophobia and agoraphobia among the few.

I guess I can write about it as I am pretty open in my blog anyways..

When I was around 4 years old I believe it was I was approached now and then by a bit older kids say like 6 – 9 years of age, asking if I was the younger brother of OB (I will refer to my older brother as OB for Older Brother from here on), of course I answered truthfully that yes I am OB’s younger brother and they began to ask if he was stupid or strange, (He has Dyslexia, which at that time wasn’t so well known as is now) of course as it was my brother they were bad mouthing I was offended that they talked badly about my brother, and this got me into fights and general discomfortable situations.

Now years afterwards I believe this to be a reason why I had such a bad social knowledge, when i began in preschool some began to tease me cause at this stage the previous problems had made me easy to anger and situations often got problematic…

The year I turned 7 I started school and had no knowledge of what was awaited of me or how things would turn out, the class was like 25 students in a small class room and me with claustrophobia and the presence of so many new faces and some which I remember that bullied me during preschool…
I was in that school for only 2 weeks, they had to evacuate me cause they jumped me on the playground, stole my shoes and threw them on the roof and as memory serves someone poured his food inside my shirt during lunch, a small fight broke out and at the end I was blamed by many as the one that started it.

I started a new school after that in a “small class”, lack of a english equalent name for it, basicly a group of outcasts or “special” kids, my problem was of course the social damage and bullying, at least on this school I wasn’t bullied or attacked everyday, it was calmer and I never had any major incidents like that of the other school, teasing and bullying was less frequent and I was not openly attacked here so I had some social reformation, but at this time I felt safer being closer to grown ups so if I felt that tension was high I went to look for a teacher on patrol until it was time to go back to class.

at 4th grade I began in a “small class” for the older kids, 4th to 6th grade, it became a bit rougher then as the other classmates were a bit of the rougher kind and bad tension occurred now and then but never any major fights.

after 6th grade I was moved over to a School for kids with various problems, some of them was there for major problems like drugs or the general trouble maker that starts fights for no reason at all…

The school was at least directly social adjustable after each students needs, I got some help with regaining social trust and help developing to a more posetiveperson, later on after the years I had spent at that school I moved over to a specialised high school with less problematic students, basicly people who had learning disorders went to this school, I ended up there probably due to the social adjustments I needed to help me add some extra points to my general grades, The school was roughly 2 hours total including a combination of travel with train and subway.

The year I was to turn 18 I technicly graduated from that high school and after summer I had choosen to go to Adult Community School (I believe one can translate it as such) that fall I had my first panic attack and pretty much had them every night until i was given medication against it, the attacks I had back then was so intense that I was acctauly placed on the highest allowed dosage and they pretty much made me a walking zombie, I cumped in to everything, as I needed the income one gets when going to school I had to continue even though every day I was depressed, sleepy constantly and affraid of the next panic attack coming around the corner…

This kept on during my later studies as well and I still have panic attacks, but I stoped going to school when I was finally able to get economic support from the goverment, so these days I have a balanced medication that keeps me well enough to do less straining things and everything dosent feel like walking with lead weights on your shoulders.

So back to where we started with the pointing out that I don’t have a girlfriend, this is partialycause that I toke the stance when I was 19 that I would feel really bad having to burden someone I love with the problematics and hardship I endure in life, I am 26 now and so I have had panic attacks for 8 years now, It’s been rough now and again, but I believe I am now so stable that I can have a girlfriend, just hope I meet some nice girls to get to know

On that note I think I may have bored you enough or prehaps enlightend you, I wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

I just had a run of versus in L4D2, I ended up on a server with like 10-14 year olds, so childish language and one of them that seemed to be a real d-bag kept on being a little shit for most of the game, in the early stages I proved his team that acting an arse wasn’t in his best favor, they basically got like 8-10% of the way in before we ambushed them and ended it there, the match went on, and in the end the team I was on won by +600 points

Basically people, being a dunce and a easily raged person won’t make you a good team player or someone people want to play with in the long run.

Fashion denied

I remember back a year or two ago or so I believe it was, I was chatting on a IRC chat about this and that, at one point we were discussing anime and we came on to the subject of Cat people (mostly Cat Girls), discussing the different characters as well as ability among them, a girl from the US in this same chat shared that she had during the later part of the summer that year been wearing a nekomimi (jap: “Cat ears”) which she felt comfortable with wearing and that when she came to high school was told by the principal apparently after discussion that she could not wear it in school or face being temporarily suspended or something in that fashion.

To me that sounds like being rejected for having a different fashion sense or difference of opinion, this is I believe about the same way she saw upon it, it was part of her personality and individuality as well as part of her fashion.

I think that it is time we begin to increase tolerance in society and allow a more open eye to personal fashion ideals, if someone wants to walk around with something like for example Bunny ears, a Iron Halo or have outlandishly coloured hair, why would that be any different from the fashion of piercings, tattoos or wearing nothing but black leather.

Don’t we all want Liberty and Democracy?, come on try it, organize a day with friends and their friends, dress in what you want to wear or try out wearing what someone else would want to wear, go on have you ever wondered how it would be to go along as a Playboy Bunny or dye your hair in the rainbows colours or dress as a pirate and question those around you how your looks affect them and explain how it makes you feel, dare be creative and explain that its fashion, not a costume party

Just food for thought, I would love to hear what you think about it, if you want to share your fashion, you can send me pictures, be sure to note if I can display them on the website

~ And onward to something different ~

Do you have SAD?

A year ago I was talking with my mate Kundara about how I go into a hibernation like state during the winter months, he then said ‘Sounds like you have SAD (Seasonal Affection Disease)’ and since then I have referred to this seasonal behaviour as such, basically my body wants to go to sleep all the time and one remains in that (teenager-just-woke-up-on-a-school-day-morning-just-want-to-go-back-to-sleep) state until like February.

I have many times tried to increase the amount of light in my environment and drink lots of cola and coffee, but it has only a mild effect to my winter days, only difference I have noticed myself seem to be when there is snow outside, it helps brighten up and I do keep awake a bit longer then the 5-7 hours I normally get during these periods.

~ Moving on ~

Left 4 Dead 2

So Left 4 Dead 2 will officially be released on wednesday the 18th of November 06:00 CET on Steam, Well guess I will play it on wednesday then when ever I wake up that morning then, the demo was ok if not very short, the first impression of the melee weaponry is that they will be fun in those situations when the undead hordes gets in close and surrounds you and you need to slash your way out of there, and lets face it, hitting a zombie dead center with a guitar is just to much fun, rock on *grin*