The Life of Wighar Stamfaste

Sunday April 18th morning, my aunt took her last breath and passed away, she was 53, she was my favourite aunt and she was one of those who in my life gave support and strength even at times when I did not need it.
My aunt and I both have Alpha 1-antitrypsin deficiency, which in some may cause emphysema in their later life and there is also a small risk of liver problems.
This is one of those reasons I immediately stopped smoking and at later stage stopped drinking alcohol at parties.
The way I found out I had this deficiency was thru a blood test where my mother asked the doctor that it be tested for in the same time they were probing to find an answer to why I had panic attacks, this being at the spring the year after I got my first panic attacks, as you might understand I had no real knowledge of what the deficiency was about other than that my aunt had it and she was a heavy smoker when younger and had a more progressed situation.
This means that when she came for a visit we had to clean the house at least the day before to remove and clear out dust as well we could not wear any perfumes or antiperspirants which could be bad for her lungs, those who know people with asthma or acute perfume allergy should recognize the need of keeping a clean environment and the air clean of high/heavy concentration chemicals.
Do I have any reaction to high dust or chemical allergy?, Yes I do have reactions to them but not in that extent, I can get nausea and dizziness from some types of perfume over usage or heavy perfumed fabric softeners.
The usual behavior I have seen when people see others that are allergic showing reactions to these things is often simple ignorance or the assumption that the person(s) is faking it to get attention or that they don’t ‘approve’ of the certain smell they are wearing.
Anyway getting bad memories on the subject of perfumes so I will go on to something different.

Mount & Blade: Warband

Mount & Blade in itself is a rather unique Action RPG even without the Warband stand alone expansion version, I myself have not played the original game but went straight for Warband and I love it and the M&B system seems rather easy to mod and I would not be surprised if there will be an abundance of excellent mods to be played in the coming years, having had some time to play the game and try out to start my own kingdom/faction in the game I found it lacking of a specific own faction/rebel kingdom army so I started fiddling on some new troops using “Morgh’s M&B Warband TXT Tools”.

To make it simple I plainly copied the “Native” (vanilla M&B:W game module) and renamed the copy to Rebelarmy that and then started playing around with the tool to see what I could do with it, as for the moment I have no intention of making it public, that is until I am certain that I can make the modified module legally public without problems, better safe then sorry.

Speaking of modifications to M&B:W, I was daydreaming on what one could do or modify into the game and here is a few ideas.

If your not joining a faction you might simply set up in a factions town and have one of your adventuring heroes establish in the local tavern as a mercenary liaison agent that offers men-for-hire to the local caravans heading from the city or if you are in good favor with the local lord offer your men for favorable rates and as favor improves maybe some of the loot from their campaigns or why stop there you are not a loyal subject so why play nice, have some shady dealings with the underworld providing information to lords of the other factions for a price, do some racketeering (extorting local businesses for “protection” money and such.) of course you must try and set up a regular bribe with the guards or risk be run out of town and fall in disfavor with the local lord and his faction.

‘Why not make the mod yourself?’ you might ask, well I would though I don’t think I could take the pressure, not with my stress tolerance at this time anyway, if I did have the right stress tolerance and knowledge of how to make the mod I would probably be punching code and going thru plans and asking for help from experienced modders that could provide some free on their off-time help with it.

Anyway let’s move on to something a bit different.

Starcraft 2: Wings of Liberty to be released on the 27th of July!

I personally want to get into the story and see where the story takes me and what has evolved since the end of the Brood Wars expansion.
When it comes to RTS the story of the game tells if it has a good story that you want to replay the story again, I think they made it rather good in the previous Starcraft and I hope that it will be this time as well.
Multiplayer is as well a good angle but if the story of the game is not interesting enough to entangle the player into the story its just not worth it, but I don’t think it will be like that this time as the game is divided into 3 releases based on the 3 races each getting a game and a separate story that will make the full line, it’s a seriously great idea for those that are taken into the story as long as the story is worth it.

The only thing I believe that could seriously mess up the game would be if Blizzard made the same mistake UBIsoft made with settlers 7 and have a DRM that disgusts the players and potential customers from the game, and only reason I bought Settlers 7 was cause I am a fan of the series and had not seen the notice of the new type of DRM , had I seen it prior to pre-ordering it, I would not order it and wait until one of my friends had gotten it and tried it or actually wait for a cracked version of the game, Yes you read right, I would download the cracked game because of the DRM, because I believe that when you BUY a game and install it you should be able to play it out of the box no matter if you have an internet connection or not.

A DRM to me is like having a Condom you have to call the company and have the phone conversation during the sexual act to have the protection active thru it, and if you suddenly lose contact with the company on the phone, its protection stops working and all stops working, your partner and you become angry cause you have to stop early and cant resume until you manage to get back in contact with the company…
The moment has gone and it is not worth the effort and it will force you to look for a condom that works all the time during the usage of the product so that you can play for as long as you want.
I know a really odd (and disgusting) way of referencing it but you get the idea clearly, I do not like my games to be interrupted as it was when I was playing Settlers 7 the other day and it timed out a check for its DRM server thingy and ended the game, yes it ends the game shutting itself down when it cant get in contact with its “authentication” server.

I have had a dream the last few days where I am sitting on a stump looking out over a sea of flowers that is white and orange with a red middle and in the midst of the flowers sits 2 rather large white cats like the world of warcraft saber mounts sitting next to each other watching a white-purple-ish moon in the night sky with their tails semi tangling together like holding hands on and off, the last I see of this scene is a stream of light, like a star falling… then I wake up and I am back in my bed looking at the roof above my bed wide awake.

I sometimes wonder about my dreams and what they mean if anything..

This is all for now, may the force be with you and see you soon again.

Post Surgery

So yesterday I went in to the local hospital to have my frenulum repaired, that is the tiny bit of skin between the foreskin and glands, the back story to this is that i woke up one night with painful feeling in my crotch, apparently the skin had dryed somehow the penis had placed it self rather badly and the foreskin was pulled when i twisted in my sleep that cracked the frenulum.

I visited the urologist to consultation, the urologist was a man that barely spoke swedish and he hasted alot so there wasnt much information shared, basicly i was told that it was no problem this could be fixed by a surgeon, so I went in yesterday at 07:30 the old urologist apparently had left and thankfully a urologist was swedish toke a look to explain how they were to repair the frenulum, but he informed me that my foreskin was extremly tight and was suprised it was not mentioned at my earlier visit, best course of action was Circumcision, operation went smoothly no problems at all, and now here I sit with a pain in the crouch that will take a month to solidly heal, I may not have any intercourse for a month, well thats easy I dont have a girlfriend and I am still a virgin so thats no problem really.

Going to the bathroom is different I have no sense of aim now and the numbness is pretty scary to thought, I had a panic attack last night when the preasure gave me pain as I had an erection like men do during night which is pretty natural, I so do hate having panic attacks

Anyway let’s get on to another topic.

2011 the year of SWTOR?

So they say that Star Wars The Old Republic will be release sometime before summer 2011, I am fine with waiting really, I hope they spend the time fixing bugs and compatability issues, I am a bit of the information train myself, I have yet to read anything on how Crafting will be in the game and if there will be a player housing system and how such system is developed if implimented in final release.

So many questions running a cross my mind… Teräs Käsi, Echanii, Adegha…. so many questions, gah nvm, lets move on.

Nihongo desu ka

Yes indeed, Do you speak Japanese?

I myself have some minor knowledge, yet I do not believe I myself could perform any everyday watercooler talk or such, I do have some education materials to read and listen to so I may learn a bit more when I have time to read and listen to them with dedication.

Dedication is a problem at the moment cause I have so much else to do at the moment, though I will in the comming year listen to the education CD’s while playing games, this worked when I listened to audio books earlier which I now still remember most of it.

I’ll end my post here and hope that you the read enjoy reading it.
(PS: Ill fix the spelling later, i typed it fast and wasnt thinking of my spelling)